Jodi Sta. Maria: ‘I turned to drugs’
Actress Jodi Sta. Maria, 34, revealed her experienced years after separating from her husband panfilo Lacson Jr.
Jodi admitted she turned to illegal drugs to put it down her emotions.
“My life was such a mess na hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula. Wala nang magmamahal sa akin kasi separada na ako, segunda mano,” she said,
“Before becoming a workaholic, I became an alcoholic. I drank day and night. I even drank during tapings, ang gusto ko kasi masolusyunan ‘yung feeling ko of pain and emptiness. When alcohol wasn’t enough, I turned to drugs. I felt empty. I pretended to be okay when the truth is hindi naman talaga. I was in and out of bad relationships that left me all the more wounded and broken.”
Jodi was married to Lacson for five years but their immaturity was the reason for their separation which affected their son, Panfilo III or “Thirdy” and now 10 years old.
“I got married at the age of 22. The marriage lasted for five years. Siguro, inisip ko, nagpakasal kami at a very young age na we didn’t really know each other. Jodi said.
“While the annulment was ongoing, all the more that I felt lost and broken, alam nyo kung gaano ito ka-pangit na ilahad sa korte lahat ng detalye, simula ng mag-ligawan kayo, hanggang sa maging mag-boyfriend kayo, hanggang sa kinasal kayo, hanggang sa kung ano man ang nangyari kung bakit kayo naghiwalay. My life was such a mess na hindi ko na alam kung saan ako magsisimula. I needed attention. I needed acknowledgment. It even showed in the relationship I had with him. No matter how unhealthy and abusive, I stayed in the relationship because it felt okay, may nagmamahal sa akin at may nakakapansin.” She said.
In 2014, Jodi Sta Maria attends to church, “I have a newfound respect for my body now, and I have to take care of it. Maayos itong ibinibigay sa akin ng Panginoon, maayos ko din itong isasauli sa kanya.”